I ripped up my habit tracker. Here’s why.

A few weeks ago,
I said this line to a dear friend…
“I think me trying to live my best life is getting in the way of me living my actual life”
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I ripped up my habit tracker in a fit of rage.
^rage is a little dramatic…
But i was tired of checking boxes.
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**caveat to all who use/like habit trackers- that’s totally cool!!! and this is not a love note to you***
It’s a love note to me.

And that’s often why I share the things I do with you all. They have been in my head, and they’ve helped me be more kind and compassionate with myself.

I maybe made 14 iterations of a habit tracker. I so badly wanting one that worked *for me*
I even wrote “see people” on it.
(I work at home in our basement- so getting out is very important for my mental health)

But as I continued to add things, I started to realize my day started to morph around “checking” things off.
And I didn’t want that.

This is where I strongly believe in self awareness. I have guide blocks (posts?) maybe more like questions I ask myself in order to figure out if something is “working for me”

And those are for me to answer, not to ask someone what they think…

And I am comfortable in my decision in this moment.

Maybe I’ll find a morning routine that works for me in the future, maybe I won’t-
But for now, in this moment- I’m okay with wandering through the woods.
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