05/20/2019

Yes I understand
That every life must end
As we sit alone
I know someday we must go
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Yeah I'm a lucky man
To count on both hands
The ones I love
Some folks just have one
Yeah others they got none
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Stay with me
Let's just breathe-
JUST BREATHE-Pearl Jam
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I don’t think I properly listened to the lyrics of this song until today.
It’s been on my playlist since 2010-
and I always got such a good feeling from it-
a calm feeling-
But not until today,
Until I was writing a letter to someone I know that is dying-
Did the words really hit me.
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Death is inevitable, but that doesn’t make it easy-
Knowing something WILL happen
DOES NOT make it easier when it DOES happen. -
Growing older, I have the understanding that I’ll experience it more and more-
But that doesn’t mean I can’t get better at the understanding & empathetic piece of it. -
My cousin died in a car accident when I was in 5th grade-
and with that brought the realization that there are no guarantees in life.
When I have friends’ who go through it-
I make sure to call them-
No matter how hard it is.
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I will admit that holding the phone prior to pushing the green circle is anxiety producing-
‘Will I say the wrong thing?’ ‘I bet they’re busy’ ‘I don’t want to bother them…’
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I now tell myself to shut up, press it- and stay silent,
And similar to what this song says-
Sometimes, I just breathe with them.
Knowing that sometimes-
that may be exactly what they needed.