05/30/2019

@beauty_redefined is one of my favorite IG accounts and this post is one that made the hairs on my arms stand up.
For years, I longed to be called beautiful or pretty- never adding up how many times people called me “joyful” or “inspirational” -
I just wanted to hear it from a random passerby-
My mom and my dad were cool and all- but I knew they were a little biased with their opinion. -
You are going to get 4 thousand messages from other people in the next hour, day and month- …someone assuring you that you are beautiful no matter what!
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“Look in the mirror-” they say “and TELL yourself that you are beautiful”
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I’d be pinocchio if I told you that I’d never done that before- but now there’s something different in me, something that is telling me that it’s OKAY not to want to be beautiful. It’s okay to wear clogs with a paint stain and a cut off t shirt from high school, b/c that is what I truly WANT to do-Its okay to want to work on Courage, Empathy and Tenacity more than my wardrobe-
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If you WANT to wear red lipstick- GO TO TOWN.
BUT-If you are wearing it for the deep yearning of others’ to accept you- then that’s a deeper void that can’t be polished with satin gloss. -
I am not DISSING the term beautiful, or beauty, It’s a descriptor that is used daily, but I challenge myself to find other descriptors to YEARN to be defined BY. -
When people write me and tell me “you made me laugh today, and I was feeling sad-” THAT- that means the WORLD to me. Thank you for hanging out with me, for encouraging me and for sticking around even though I wear clogs from 1989.