10/21/2018

Recently, I’ve been feeling SO much JOY with her. Not that I’ve never felt it prior, but for some reason- it’s been SO intense for me lately.

So much so, that when I actually internalize it- I begin to cry.

There is this part of me that feels guilty when I start to feel it-this honest thought of “how?” Or “why?” Comes to the forefront.

WHY do I get to feel this amazing emotion-when others are in so much pain? .

How is this real right now? At this moment- .

I don’t really know- what I’m trying to say- I guess I’m trying to put my thoughts out there in hopes that one day they will weave themselves together to form some sort of “ah HA” blanket realization.

But-Please know that no matter what you are struggling through right now, this year, during this month or this moment- If there’s ONE thing that I know FOR sure- it’s that it won’t last forever. There will be joy- it may not be tomorrow- or a month from now, but I promise you- that this pain, this time- won’t last forever.

I love you all so much- thanks for hanging with me on this journey.