06/24/2018

Anyone besides me ever ponder contradicting quotes?

Sayings that we know are true because they have played out in our lives- time and time again-but have completely opposing ideas?

For example,

“Distance makes the heart grow fonder” vs. “Out of sight, out of mind”

As well as..

“The definition of insanity is doing the same thing, over and over and expecting a different result.” vs. “The only true failure is when you stop trying.”

I would like to speak to the latter for a moment. .

I told you all that I would keep you in the loop, so here goes. .

Last night, I received the confirmation email from the Zumba home office confirming that I did NOT get the trainer position.

I opened the email with my heart racing- and as my eyes continued the slow road down the paragraph, line by line- I knew where it was going. .

As I started tearing up, I felt my whole body quickly overcome with emotion- my stomach both empty and simultaneously feeling like someone just gave me their best “gut check”

I TOLD myself time and time again, that even if I didn’t get it, the opportunity of APPLYING taught me so much.

Thing is, all those “positive” aspects that I kept repeating after I submitted my application couldn’t find a way to the forefront of my mind, no matter how hard they tried.

All that came running through my mind was, “why? WHY did you even TRY you idiot?!”

After about 15 minutes of sitting there, quietly repeating words to myself that would have made my worst enemy cringe, I got up- and said, this is NOT the end. “failure” is the key continue bettering oneself (if that’s the path you choose to take)

I will not let this rejection overshadow what I know I am gifted at-

bringing people joy through movement. .

I know that this is what moves my soul, I know that this is one of the gifts that God has blessed me with. I know that I am here to spread that happiness- so that others can be more energetic, empathetic and feel a connection to their neighbor that we often complain about “being so lost on” these days.

With tenacity and grit, I will overcome. And this won’t be my last “rejection” .